Change of plans

"Where does it hurt?"

"Everywhere."

That's taken from a TV commercial for a drug for depression. I'm not depressed, but I hurt everywhere. Sleeping on a lumpy couch or on a camping cot doesn't help, nor does being awakened often during the night by one or more cats, but I suspect those aren't the culprits, just hindrances. I suspect that stress, worry and lack of physical exercise over the years have had a detrimental effect on my health. And sleeping in a damp van that doesn't get any warmer than 50 degrees even with a heater on, is probably giving me arthritis, if I don't already have arthritis.

It may be fibromyalgia, but it may not be. All I know is that I hurt all over... my fingers, wrists, back, shoulders, head, neck, legs, feet, toes. And I can't go on like this, at least not while it's still cold at night.

So I need to change plans and take care of myself, even if only for a few months, no matter what the cost. If I don't take care of myself my 90 year old father may outlive me.

The first step is to come in out of the cold. I've rented a small studio with a bed, desk, bathroom and kitchenette. The second step is to get dental care. I need two root canals to start with.

All this will be very expensive so I've got to stop trying to offer services that nobody wants to pay for and will be changing my strategy.